every endless night has a dawning day

acyrrej @ 2009-12-11T22:59:00

2009-12-11T14:59:29Z

i'm damn stupid. how many times must it take for me to wake up. somehow i know i'll just fall back into this whole nonsense again. can't i ever ever ever get out of it.

malaysia sucks. i'm sick and i wanna go home. badly.

and i dont even want to go into how badly i screwed up 218.

life is such a bitch. and you are such an asshole.

effedupshit

2009-12-07T13:33:21Z

tomorrow's the last. finally.

this entire examination has been a nightmare serious. i fucked up every single paper i could. and today's was terribly bad.

i feel more pathetic damn ever. now my squash sucks studies suck and i ____________________________

(omg why am i still harping on this even wtf)

and i am terribly sick atm. down with flu sorethroat and am a little feverish and this whole feeling is super sucky. hate it when everything comes at one go. i can't handle this shit all at once.

screw expectations.

acyrrej @ 2009-11-25T19:12:00

2009-11-25T11:13:00Z

my exam starts tomorrow. when most are halfway through/already done :( gosh. its good and bad.i have more time to study which i obviously need but i end on the last day of exams when everyone else has already played for 2 weeks.

I am so annoyed at my lack of discipline. I'm not really studying, i'm not really doing anything. half the time im stoning, and on facebook, so much so that i'm bored of facebook. gosh someone save me. and i can't go out either cos my exams are not over and i'd feel terribly guilty if i do. :( the article i just read said that multitasking causes information to be processed in some part of the brain which does not facilitate information storage. which means im screwed.

anyhow, i'm so damn unprepared for this exams. not because i studied less. never did i really study alot, just that this time the modules are so much tougher (except accounting). plus the smaller cohord <60 for actuarialscience and IT means that basically im gged big time. plus i screwed up coursework. i dont really know what to expect, except to say byebye to my gpa.

yet im still not feeling the urgency. 5 papers in the next 13 days. i know there's very little time, but im still slacking away, doing things own time own target.

goodluck jerryca.

nothing's right, nothing's left

2009-11-15T05:16:37Z

off to study again. sometimes i wish i weren't so stupid.

acyrrej @ 2009-11-13T13:50:00

2009-11-13T05:50:08Z

get me back to the rafflesian environment right here right now.

i can't cope with the inefficiencies and incapability and inability to communicate anymore

ANYMORE.

acyrrej @ 2009-11-12T00:05:00

2009-11-11T16:07:38Z

i've been neglecting squash since the start of this semester i must admit. its not so easy to cope with both anymore. but now school's out, study break. time to train (: and study too of course.

wispa in dec. got to get my fitness and strength back in one month.

not a very pleasant deadline to work with.

hmmmmm

acyrrej @ 2009-11-08T11:11:00

2009-11-08T03:14:43Z

i woke up on a sunday morning and started occupying my brain with nonsense. thinking about things that won't happen again. somehow i wished i could get my brain out of this state so i can use it for more constructive purposes like studying for my test next week so i won't screw up my gpa so badly this semester.

what's wrong with me. haven't i had enough already and all i do is to fall back into it fall back into it and fall back into it.

ugh study. exams in 2 and a half weeks.

acyrrej @ 2009-11-03T23:08:00

2009-11-03T15:10:44Z

i'm moving home soon (: haha no more hall for about 2 months. thing is ive shifted a whole lot of nonsense to my room but i barely utilize them zzzzzz

ohwell nvm next sem maybe

super tired

nights!

acyrrej @ 2009-10-25T22:28:00

2009-10-25T14:30:11Z

i'm seriously quite disappointed in you.

but i guess its none of business anymore

come on :D

2009-10-24T07:59:54Z

my head hurts! :( fitness test in the morning sun is ewww srsly. and recovery sprints. tsk.

ohwell its been a rather good week. but im super UNMOTIVATED now because there are no more quizzes. maybe just project deadlines. but its okay cos its IT and im loving it ahhaha.

ohgays i realize how geeky im beginning to sound.

anyhow, i'll just have to hang in there as project deadlines and presentations start to loom. its the eekiest part of the semester. but we'll all get through it and we'll all be fine. somehow we'll find our ways, like we always do.

for now let me bask in the happiness of not having any quiz to study for since school started after midterms.

can't wait for the holidays, CAN'T WAIT.

:D

acyrrej @ 2009-10-15T21:40:00

2009-10-15T13:41:08Z

... because this world is fucking unforgiving.

stop sucking already.

acyrrej @ 2009-10-07T11:13:00

2009-10-07T03:14:38Z

evidently, boys dont use their brains to think do they? they dont evaluate the situation, neither do they take in the consequences of their actions. plus they have zero tact.

maybe i should question my assumption of them having brains in the first place.

PHAT PHACE

2009-09-24T06:35:15Z

ITS RECESS WEEK BABY :D

acyrrej @ 2009-09-18T22:07:00

2009-09-18T14:09:54Z

at least now i feel that all the hardwork i've put in and sacrifices i've made are worth it

God's plans amazes me. (:

acyrrej @ 2009-09-18T01:59:00

2009-09-17T18:00:20Z

i can't do a damn thing right.

i can't even fall asleep when i need to.

i need a break.

impossible is nothing

2009-09-06T06:39:10Z

i've been feeling rather unmotivated recently. I could probably attribute this to the overwhelming workload, and level of difficulty of the tutorials and project i'm getting. somehow i feel like i can't commit so much to squash. i can't do as well as the last year in my work. i'm really weary, and dreadful.

but really, what's stopping me?

took me long enough to figure it was myself. like how the saying goes your toughest opponent is always yourself.

so, no. i'm not going to be so easily contented. i'm not going to be so easily defeated.

i'm more than that, so much more than that.

acyrrej @ 2009-09-02T07:27:00

2009-09-01T23:30:06Z

Im sick and not recovering. Feels terrible to be in school and at squash when you're sniffing and coughing.

Ohwell i'm buried under a pile of readings AND tutorials. and it totally does not help when there's public policy challenge this week. ugh what have i gotten myself into. :/

good morning world btw, 13 hours of school is about to start.

acyrrej @ 2009-08-26T23:29:00

2009-08-26T15:35:03Z

haha i currently have a 3-day week and everyone on the hall waiting list i suppose wants to kill me as my single room is empty 4/7 of the week! ohwell i have an average of 9 hours of lesson on those 3 days so maybe its not that awesome anyway hehheh. School's been awfully stressful, though i must admit, rather enriching and exciting on the other hand.

haha im such a geek at heart <3

im tired. but my academic week has ended (:

to a great weekend ahead :D

acyrrej @ 2009-08-14T11:10:00

2009-08-14T03:21:32Z

Its first week of school and there's so much work already. the best part is 2 modules have not even commenced yet. programming is breathing down my neck because its a total foreign language and actuarial science is proving to be much harder than i thought it would be.

My head is starting to hurt and hopefully moving into hostel officially next week would be more conducive for me to study. I'm getting really worried because coach Sandra has feedback that i need to put i more hours into training, and my sis advised me to take on URECA for my portfolio. Which all adds up to squeezing my time dry. I really hope i can walk out of the term alive, and still do well of course.

Gosh i need some help here, maybe some panadol will do.

acyrrej @ 2009-07-31T22:50:00

2009-07-31T14:57:47Z

finally caught potter with yuru and junx today. really wasnt half as bad as people made it out to be. i have to admit that i enjoyed it pretty much (: ohwell school is starting in one week. i think i'll be terribly busy next week.

1. CIMB
2. Shop for hall stuff
3. Prepare for cousin's wedding
4. Train for NSC
5. Meet up with many more people.
6. Tuition
7. EXPLORE ION!

and the list goes on cos there's still a few movies i wanna catch! ohwell.

don't know whether to look forward to school or not. For one i really wanna swap my accounting tutorial so i can have my 3 day week.

ohwell will be back. hope i dont get thrashed too badly by sharon.

please don't leave me

2009-07-24T02:10:30Z

thanks. but i guess that was all you could do for me.

acyrrej @ 2009-07-20T14:04:00

2009-07-20T06:05:00Z

first round walk over second round playing kahoe

o.O nvm come on come on!

just sharing an awesome old song (:

我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的皱纹有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的直到失去力气
为了你我愿意
动也不能动也要看着你
直到感觉你的发线有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里
我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的发线有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里
我们好不容易我们身不由已
我怕时间太快不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜之间白头永不分离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里

acyrrej @ 2009-07-15T22:28:00

2009-07-15T14:33:37Z

other than looking like me, you're NOTHING like me.

you've been in this world for 18 years and what have you learnt? throwing tantrums, spending more money than you can get, failing at school. and screaming at the maid the entire day.

what's got into you? or maybe what's got into me why do i even give a fucking damn about you.

stop being such a bitch.

acyrrej @ 2009-06-30T23:31:00

2009-06-30T15:36:35Z

june's coming to an end. and i'm really glad for that.

to summarize my june:
2x common flu
1x gastric flu
1x abductors pull
1x quads strain

haha how much worse can it get. hope my july will be much better.

wispa from 5-15 :D

and cherie tomorrowwww :D :D

acyrrej @ 2009-06-27T22:58:00

2009-06-27T15:01:47Z

UGHHH i ate so much today :/ okay family days are always like that.

(: TUITION TMR MONEY MONEY HERE I COME. and i need to train harderrr and burn more calories.

erppsss. leaving to malaysia 5-15. CHERIE WHEN'S OUR DATE!